Life above the horizon

I am going to face a phd thesis proposal session... actually I dun have confidence in my topic at all.. feeling like I am on a ship which is going to sink soon! Have been working on this project for too long (2 years)... now finally I realise that it isn't a great project at all.. can it really earn me a PhD.. I feel very doubtful about that! How? How? How? Keep feeling unhappy and unsecure these few days.. Don't really have the motivation to carry on working.. maybe I should have a rest.. but I just back from long vacation!!! hahaha.. conflicting ya? so what can I do? What should I do.. someone please teach me?? Listening to "BY Myself" - Linkin Park

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What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself)
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

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I am back from long holiday! Is good to have a short break before a long journey ahead! Sometimes.. I dunno whether I should continue this journey or not..maybe Is all because of one wrong decision!

Heheh.. the posts I wrote yesterday are still here!! Appear from dunno where! Great.. I watched "Shrek 2" last night.. Quite disappointed.. Shrek 1 is much better than Shrek 2! There is always a saying that sequel will not do better than the first movie.. I think that is quite true (like MATRIX??)

I wrote a post.. but it just hilang dunno ke mana??!! haiiiii... now I dun have any mood to write a new one liao lar!

If you ask me.. what is my biggest regret in my life until now.. I will tell you.. the biggest regret that I have is that I don't know piano.. I always imagine myself playing piano.. so that I can pretend to be a "气质美女".. hehhe... too bad.. I dunno piano, dunno literature, dunno how to draw, dunno how to dance.. dunno how to play chess.. 琴棋书画无一通! hahahaha.. That's why I dun have 气质! Okay..stop dreaming..

Back to hometown for last few days.. that's always enjoyable being at home.. hehhee.. the main activity at home is to lie in front of TV and watch tv programmes continuously!

Well, I still cannot add in "comment" function.. I guess I have tried to add in this function long ago.. but it didn't work since then! Sigh.. just forget it! Today is vesak day.. ( a Public Holiday in Singapore). However, I am in lab now because I still have to submit a report to my supervisor today.. poor yun! No matter what, work hard..

Play a game?? This is a very interesting game called "Code Breaker"... Try it out, you may get addicted like me..hehhee..

http://www.abeautifulmind.com/games/codebreak/index.html

Another brand new month... feeling tired and exhausted although I didn't do much recently.. most of the time enjoying and watching drama series.. however, I am totally stressed.. really feel depressed... I haven thought of a solution for my research problem.. and I am supposed to submit a report by 11 June.. Totally lost.. dunno what to do next! sighhhhh... no matter what, life still goes on... I seem to use this phrase a lot! sometimes, I will think... Am I wasting my life now by doing this so-called "research stuff" that is obviously uselesssssss... haiiiii...

Watched "Pride"- a japanese drama series.. featuring Kimura Takuya (木村拓哉). This is a drama series about ice hockey, love and determination.. Very funny and sweet story..The background music in the drama series are very soft and nice as well.