Life above the horizon

One friend is going back to china soon.. she finished her master studies.. feeling a bit sad over this though i understand this is gonna happen sooner or later... I will be the only one left in this cold, plain lab.. but still feeling sad.. this reminds me of the time before UTM graduation.. everyone just leaves the life of each other like that.. we entered each other life.. 4 years ago.. made each other laugh, cry, hate, love... we left each other life ... 4 years later..  the only thing we left for each other are just endless memories.. suddenly feel wanna cry.. how many four years we would have in our life.. I really miss my university friends a lot.. I really miss my secondary school life a lot.. now I entered another phase of my life while my friends are doing the same in their lives.. once upon a time, we slept with each other.. we told stories of ourselves to each other.. we ate breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper together.. we went DEWAN KULIAH together.. Friends.. I will never forget you.. and the best memories I ever had with you guys..

Listening to FIR album.. (recommending songs: Lydia, Fly Away and WoMenDeAi)

Someone said I am rich.. hehe.. to further agitate him.. I bought a new hp! :) Motorola C650.. but I haven't really started to use it yet.. but it is a cool phone with integrated digitcal camera... mp3 ringtone :D hehehe.. so nice.. so great.. but I actually want another model, which is a discontinued model from LG.. too bad.. they have no stock anymore! SO i bought this C650.. but I start to love this phone.. ;-)

Going to face a phd thesis proposal presentation on 30 July 2004.. haven't started to prepare the slides yet.. I am quite lz recently ... watching my friends who are going to graduate soon.. I feel envy of them.. really... regret of the decision i made one year ago.. am I really a "phd material"... I dont think so.. then why I risk my "life" at this? i also dun understand.. haii haiii haiiii.. but I will not give up.. No matter how hard is it.. is just for temporary.. it will be over sooner or later.. I will hang in... till finish..

I think my life is getting more and more unorganised nowadays.. And I am getting older already.. I keep forgetting important things, important dates, important appointments, important meetings and so on.. How can I be so forgetful? Day before yesterday, one of my best friends told me that she was coming over to singapore yesterday and asked me to meet her up at Newton MRT station at about 2 pm. I promised to go but once I woke up yesterday morning, I totally forgot this matter.. Then until she called me up and told me that she was at Newton MRT Station... I only recalled this matter.. ahhaha.. then she had to wait for me for about half an hour..aiii... what is the problem with me?? I dunno.. back to her story.. she was heading to hong kong from singapore changi airport.. she is a nice friend that I met since my practical training.. and going to get registered with her going-to-be-hubby next week in hong kong.. though she looked tired and more skinny then before, she is happy! At least I can feel her happiness from her eyes and words.. Hope that she will be happy ever after with her prince of charm! ;-)

Now writing my code again! :) coz i need to port the old code to new simulator.. what a boring task.. but hv to carry out this task also.. listening to "I will love again- lara fabian"..missing disco time.. haha.. probably i should go clubbing in order to live up my spirit once more!

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Did I ever tell you how you live in me
Every waking moment even in my dreams
And if all this talk is crazy and you dont what I mean
Does it really matter just as long as I believe

* I will love again though my heart is breaking I will love again stronger than before
I will love again even if it takes a lifetime to get over you heaven only knows

I will love again

People never tell you how really true you feel
I would die for you gladly if I knew what loss for me
So if all this talk sounds crazy and the words dont come out right
Doesn't really matter if it gets me through this night

[Repeat *]

If im true to myself nobody else can take the place of you
But I've got to be strong tell me what else can I do

[Repeat *]

I will love again, I will love again, I will love again (I will love again)
And do you know I will love again (I will love again)
You can't stop me from loving again, breathing again, feeling again
I will love again (I will love again)
(Loving again, breathing again, feeling again ) ... till fade
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Haven been writing for long.. simply because I dun wan to face my own problem.. dun wan to tell myself that I should do this and I should do that.. I am trying to avoid facing this problem for as long as possible..

Read a news article yesterday.. HP has issued a worldwide warning about a flaw in its notebook computers (What a co-incidence! I just bought a new HP laptop few weeks back).. The defect, limited to laptops, is serious enough to cause users to lose data if their machine hangs. According to HP, the faulty chips, manufactured by major players like Infineon, Samsung, Micron Technology and Winbond Electronics - could cause problems when they are used in conjuction with Intel chipsets. The faulty memory chip is unable to cope with this process and this could lead to the computer crashing and the loss of data. According to HP, consumers have until the end of the year to get their faulty chip replaced for free..